under the Daytona sunrise
there's a darkness in my eyes
dreams slip through my hands
over the long beach silver sands

the star spangled banners
and cheerleading dancers
from the 4th of July parades
can't lift this masquerade

beneath the endless blue skies
another day of beauty lies
tears linger like the morning dew
wishing that I was there with you

never thought that I would act this way
missing you every second that you're away
never wanted to feel so dependent
an addiction to a heart that's absent

I close my eyes and you feel closer
as my heart starts to beat faster
the light slowly disappears
I can taste the lonely tears
gently falling down my face
where your would fingers trace

never knew that love could hurt me
the way that I miss you so entirely
never wanted to feel so dependent
an addiction to a heart that's absent

I touch the entwined rings you gave
for your embrace I forever crave
I know I'm yours always
just like our lazy sundays
the calm through my storm
where my heart stays warm

how can you miss something that was never there
I don't know what I'm supposed to feel now
you were going to be all I ever wanted
but you're just a shadow in the back of my mind
a little bit of regret that I'll leave behind

so many reasons for how things turn out in life
I used to believe it was all meant to be
but you were all that I ever wanted
destiny took you from the shadows in my heart
my hopes shattered before we could ever start

waiting for the day my dreams come true
I'm so close but still too far away
to hold you is all that I really want
feel your heartbeat free from the shadow
remember that there's always another tomorrow

2009
Once Broken

Lay your hands on me
tear away my skin
through shreds of glass
of a heart once broken
barely held together
buried deep within

take my heart in your hand
just let the blood flow
cut the ties to my past
hold tight, never let me go
I will breathe again
as my love for you grows
 

As the swallow learns to fly
he jumps and closes his eyes
no more fears to hold him down
he's free to soar the skies

He feels the wind under his wings
and makes sense of everything
there's no dream too far
he's found a heart to believe in

No-one can capture his beauty
shines so bright they can't see
the mystery that lies inside
the swallow and his destiny

I want to go off the rails
just to know how it feels
not to give a damn about you
and what is or isn’t true

you’ve got hold of my heart
but keep it at arms length
what are you waiting for?
waiting until theres no more?
or just some two bit whore?

You’ve seen the dark side of me
and it’s slowly taking over
I want to love you like violence
and make you scream in silence
crave me like an illegal substance

but you sell me off with lies
made for you to hide behind
It’s just feeding to my addiction
curiosity killed the willing victim

when i cut myself do you bleed
when it goes deep, do you weep
do you pull the blade from my wrist
or do you dig it in deeper and twist

are you the reason i hurt this way
do you look or do you turn away
do you bear the scars that I wear
hand on heart do you swear

when i cut myself do you bleed
when i die, do you cry
am I a memory that you regret
cut yourself to try and forget?

I'm trying to find myself in this mess
you don't know what I've going through
I've pretended i am fine for so long
held my head up and carried on

truth is i broke down a long time ago
the pieces don't fit together anymore
I know I've been changing into this
the angel with a poisonous kiss

I'm no longer what you can see
there's a darkness lurking inside
turning twisted and slightly insane
smiling as i swallow all your pain

can you love the demon in me
I can't survive without the hurt
keep it crashing down in waves
drown my sorrows i don't want saved

lying awake thinking of you
the summer heat melting through
feeling weaker
falling deeper
in love with you

playing with words in my head
did i mis-read what you said
getting hazy
going crazy
in love with you

>> this is just me trying out different ways of writing,
not sure I personally like it. But I'm thinking it's a case
of trial and error.

Into The Night

I feel so alone in this fog
no future ahead
just blind luck
nothing to look back on
it's all just fading away
into the grey, into the night

I feel so alone in this fog
there is no light
no-one in view
only fleeting hope
it passes by too fast
doesn't last, into the night

it's all slowly crumbling
and one day it'll all come down
the road i walk is fragile
I'm too scared to leave this town

the walls are so high
yet you won't see them fall
break through the barriers
so that i can escape them all

there is no safety in freedom
nothing to keep you warm
no-one to protect you
nowhere that you are from

there's a little glimpse of what used to be
i don't want to stop and watch it fade away
lets keeping talking til the sun goes down
and i can pretend that you hear what I say

tears will fall and hearts will break open
somethings in life just aren't meant to be
maybe we are just one of those movie scenes
stars may collide but it's only make believe

I wish I could drag myself away
but there's a saddness in your eyes
I could stay lost in them forever
while the world around us dies

there has never been a beauty
like there is inside of you
a wounded heart still caring
as your soul shines through

I could cry all your tears for you
feeling the pain thats in your eyes
an innocence time has lost and found
hoping that lonliness will disguise

All it took was one look from you
and my heart was already breaking
close your eyes and think of me
I'll be there while you're dreaming