the wrong side of destiny

Hope Floats

2009-11-30T20:27:09Z

I've heard that hope floats
then why am I drowning
I'm not where I should be
everything's changing

The hole is getting bigger
the shadow from above
engulfing my spirit
compromising my love

Before The Sunrise

2009-11-22T22:46:44Z

yet there is no reply
only my voice fading in the wind
lost amongst the dreams
no catchers in the sky

whispers of a forgotten land
before the rising sun
dust replaces the tears
that once danced in my eyes

nothing to be seen
fire burns black as night
grains of hope egnite
as another spark dies

The Road

2009-07-12T20:05:45Z

sometimes the road leads where you don't expect
you want it to be right but you have to go left
there's no turning back now you're on the run
better make your desicion, it's breaking dawn

light filters past the pain in your heart
is it really showing you the way through
you wish it was telling where you should go
but it's just a tangled weave of yes and no

you know what road you're dying to believe in
trying hard to sound like you're strong enough
knowing there isn't any way you'll trully win
backwards forwards it's all the same direction

Daytona

2009-07-05T13:24:39Z

under the Daytona sunrise
there's a darkness in my eyes
dreams slip through my hands
over the long beach silver sands

the star spangled banners
and cheerleading dancers
from the 4th of July parades
can't lift this masquerade

beneath the endless blue skies
another day of beauty lies
tears linger like the morning dew
wishing that I was there with you

Absent

2009-06-11T16:18:06Z

never thought that I would act this way
missing you every second that you're away
never wanted to feel so dependent
an addiction to a heart that's absent

I close my eyes and you feel closer
as my heart starts to beat faster
the light slowly disappears
I can taste the lonely tears
gently falling down my face
where your would fingers trace

never knew that love could hurt me
the way that I miss you so entirely
never wanted to feel so dependent
an addiction to a heart that's absent

I touch the entwined rings you gave
for your embrace I forever crave
I know I'm yours always
just like our lazy sundays
the calm through my storm
where my heart stays warm

From The Shadows

2009-02-24T17:47:19Z

how can you miss something that was never there
I don't know what I'm supposed to feel now
you were going to be all I ever wanted
but you're just a shadow in the back of my mind
a little bit of regret that I'll leave behind

so many reasons for how things turn out in life
I used to believe it was all meant to be
but you were all that I ever wanted
destiny took you from the shadows in my heart
my hopes shattered before we could ever start

waiting for the day my dreams come true
I'm so close but still too far away
to hold you is all that I really want
feel your heartbeat free from the shadow
remember that there's always another tomorrow

foryousmudge @ 2009-01-28T17:17:00

2009-01-28T17:19:33Z

2009
Once Broken

Lay your hands on me
tear away my skin
through shreds of glass
of a heart once broken
barely held together
buried deep within

take my heart in your hand
just let the blood flow
cut the ties to my past
hold tight, never let me go
I will breathe again
as my love for you grows

The Swallow

2008-09-23T10:52:15Z

As the swallow learns to fly
he jumps and closes his eyes
no more fears to hold him down
he's free to soar the skies

He feels the wind under his wings
and makes sense of everything
there's no dream too far
he's found a heart to believe in

No-one can capture his beauty
shines so bright they can't see
the mystery that lies inside
the swallow and his destiny

Willing Victim

2008-09-18T08:28:43Z

I want to go off the rails
just to know how it feels
not to give a damn about you
and what is or isn’t true

you’ve got hold of my heart
but keep it at arms length
what are you waiting for?
waiting until theres no more?
or just some two bit whore?

You’ve seen the dark side of me
and it’s slowly taking over
I want to love you like violence
and make you scream in silence
crave me like an illegal substance

but you sell me off with lies
made for you to hide behind
It’s just feeding to my addiction
curiosity killed the willing victim

Do you bleed?

2008-08-20T20:08:42Z

when i cut myself do you bleed
when it goes deep, do you weep
do you pull the blade from my wrist
or do you dig it in deeper and twist
are you the reason i hurt this way
do you look or do you turn away
do you bear the scars that I wear
hand on heart do you swear
when i cut myself do you bleed
when i die, do you cry
am I a memory that you regret
cut yourself to try and forget?

Shooting Star

2008-08-17T22:49:53Z

breathe in, breathe out,
no-one can hear you now
endless sky above you
stars looking down to guide you
let me in, let it go
your problems are gone
this was meant for you
the beauty that is before you
live now, live forever
there are no more chains
freedom is calling you
the stars are dancing for you

hard to believe

2008-08-17T22:32:40Z

I feel a little closer than i did yesterday
but there's so many things you won't say
I know you lead me along sometimes
making me feel special a hundred times
but it's just a dream that fades in the day
faint doubt in my mind of words you say
it's hard to believe that it could be real
that your beautiful heart I could steal.

unrequited love stories

2008-08-07T23:37:49Z

did you ever love somebody who didn't know
gave them all the signals but they were blind
said all the right things at the right times
gave all your heart but theirs you couldn't find
a familiar feeling that you've had once before
getting so close but someone shuts the door
feels like you're replaying all of your histories
just like my book of unrequited love stories
every page is just the same
turn it over and do it all again
when you think you've found your happy ending
somehow you find yourself back at the beginning
it's just a book of unrequited love stories though
maybe it's time to rip out the pages and let go
do you remember every single last line
you'll hear them again I'd bet my last dime
it's not you it's me, I'm just not ready
what's meant to be is meant to be
you've got the bluest eyes I've ever seen
but what you hear isn't what they mean
you have to read inbetween the lines
and look out for all the warning signs
feels like you're replaying all of your histories
just like my book of unrequited love stories
every page is just the same
turn it over and do it all again
when you think you've found your happy ending
somehow you find yourself back at the beginning
it's just a book of unrequited love stories though
maybe it's time to rip out the pages and let go
it's nothing by lies wasting away
it's just love at the end of the day
it's not worth the paper it's written on
you'll be alone when the pain is gone

poisonous kiss

2008-08-04T19:02:22Z

I'm trying to find myself in this mess
you don't know what I've going through
I've pretended i am fine for so long
held my head up and carried on
truth is i broke down a long time ago
the pieces don't fit together anymore
I know I've been changing into this
the angel with a poisonous kiss
I'm no longer what you can see
there's a darkness lurking inside
turning twisted and slightly insane
smiling as i swallow all your pain
can you love the demon in me
I can't survive without the hurt
keep it crashing down in waves
drown my sorrows i don't want saved

In Love With You

2008-08-03T22:16:20Z

lying awake thinking of you
the summer heat melting through
feeling weaker
falling deeper
in love with you

playing with words in my head
did i mis-read what you said
getting hazy
going crazy
in love with you

foryousmudge @ 2008-07-30T16:37:00

2008-07-30T15:43:38Z

>> this is just me trying out different ways of writing,
not sure I personally like it. But I'm thinking it's a case
of trial and error.

Into The Night

I feel so alone in this fog
no future ahead
just blind luck
nothing to look back on
it's all just fading away
into the grey, into the night
I feel so alone in this fog
there is no light
no-one in view
only fleeting hope
it passes by too fast
doesn't last, into the night

This Town

2008-07-26T23:03:52Z

it's all slowly crumbling
and one day it'll all come down
the road i walk is fragile
I'm too scared to leave this town
the walls are so high
yet you won't see them fall
break through the barriers
so that i can escape them all
there is no safety in freedom
nothing to keep you warm
no-one to protect you
nowhere that you are from

Glimpse

2008-07-20T20:48:36Z

there's a little glimpse of what used to be
i don't want to stop and watch it fade away
lets keeping talking til the sun goes down
and i can pretend that you hear what I say
tears will fall and hearts will break open
somethings in life just aren't meant to be
maybe we are just one of those movie scenes
stars may collide but it's only make believe

THIS IS NOT A POEM - MYSPACE LINK

2008-07-19T21:03:14Z

I have set up a MySpace to post some poems.
I will still post them all on here, but there will
be a select few i won't. as over there i have a
blog called "Challenge Me" where i will
write things for OTHER PEOPLE.

I will only post these on myspace.

I just added my first of these called "Happy Ever After"

to read it go to:

http://www.myspace.com/wrongsideofdestiny

all adds welcome =]

Your Eyes

2008-07-16T16:48:12Z

I wish I could drag myself away
but there's a saddness in your eyes
I could stay lost in them forever
while the world around us dies
there has never been a beauty
like there is inside of you
a wounded heart still caring
as your soul shines through
I could cry all your tears for you
feeling the pain thats in your eyes
an innocence time has lost and found
hoping that lonliness will disguise
All it took was one look from you
and my heart was already breaking
close your eyes and think of me
I'll be there while you're dreaming

Star

2008-07-11T18:33:39Z

I can't take another day without telling you
my life isn't the same now that you are gone
words aren't worth saying without you listening
there's no stars in my sky where you once shone
If I could only take back those things I said
I'd wish upon the missing stars to bring you back
make all my mistakes and tears turn to dust
sprinkle them illuminating the skies of black
If dreams could be bought I'd only ask for you
they can keep all the cars and multi millions
no african sunsets or crazy rockstar lives
I just want the brightest star in all the heavens

Detour

2008-07-07T19:20:19Z

there is no end
there is no cure
there is no happiness
it's only a detour
one way road to nowhere
backstreets I don't care
it's all just the same
it's darkness everywhere
ever felt you've been here before
another destination deja vu
a vision of a mile ago
premonition like voodoo
feel the pain
feel the fear
feel the calm
it's nowhere near

the best thing you never had

2008-07-07T00:28:24Z

tired of looking back at yesterday
and everything that got in my way
all my time that you wasted
too many minutes to be counted
all my love that you left to die
and the endless questions of why
I'm taking it all back from you
but remember this in all that you do

I'll be the best thing you never had
I'll be your regret when you look back
you'll love me when I'm gone
but I'm gonna make it on my own
I would've given my world for you
walked a thousand miles to be with you
given you all that you wished for
made all your dreams come true and more
loved you forever unconditionally
given my last breath if you needed me
all that i am is made from you
we're connected and you know it's true
I'll be the best thing you never had
I'll be your regret when you look back
you'll love me when I'm gone
but I'm gonna make it on my own

second chance

2008-06-23T22:48:24Z

so this is it your second chance
like so many times before
but this time I really mean it
I won't forgive you anymore

so don't let down my faith in you
like so many times before
show the world that I was right
to keep opening up that door

you never said you're sorry
like so many times before
stop pretending you never knew
that I'm the one you adore

When the World is Ending

2008-06-01T00:06:36Z

when the world is ending
I will be asking the same damn questions
who the hell are you to save me
when you're the reason the sky's beneath me
so bring down the stars I don't care anymore
their wishes aren't worth fighting for
burn out the sun to end all days
the sky becomes an almighty blaze
so breathe it in deeply
choke on what should be
stop dragging me down with you
the smoke is clearing and I can see through
I don't know why I let us go so far
but now it's time to tell me who you are?